204 Empty Hands, Full Trust
A prayer for the things God wills that I have not thought to ask.
This morning’s prayer, thought I’d share;
Father Most High,
I come before Thee in the quiet of this morning, with a heart full of gratefulness for Thy glory, which is the only light in my seeing. I write these words because my own tongue would falter. Without You in this season, I would be a snarl of threads, a knot of wants and frayed ends with no pattern. I am that lost.
In this turning, I find I do not know what to ask. My mind is a room of closed doors, and I cannot name what lies behind them. I do not know who to lift before You. I have not done it. Apart from the slow, daily obedience of doing what I think You would have me do, I confess I do not know what would make me happy. I have no scheme to mend what I have labeled broken. With all my gathered strength, I cannot chart a course that leads to my joy without leaving another’s joy shipwrecked on some other shore.
So I come before Thee now with empty hands and a silent list. I do not ask for the things my small mind would fashion. I ask for the things Thy will has already fashioned for me, which my blind eyes cannot yet see. Bless me, I pray, with the gifts I do not know I need. Unearth the provision hidden in the soil of my unawareness. Prepare me for the portion my soul requires, but my imagination has never dreamed.
Search me, O God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting (Psalm 139:23-24). Find the faithlessness that lingers, cobwebbed and untouched, in the dark corners of this heart. Shine Thy light there. Do not let it hide. Where my trust is thin, weave it thick. Where it is timid, give it a voice.
I do not ask to understand the full scope of Thy calling. I ask only that when Thy word comes, it comes in a tongue my spirit can receive. Wrap it in a clarity that pierces my doubt. Guard its passage to me. Let it not be intercepted by the noise of this world, nor stolen by the agents of confusion. Let it land in the good soil of a willing heart, where it can take root and grow, unseen until its time.
And from this rooted place, embolden my faith. Clothe me in the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:11), that I may stand. Not in my strength, but in Thine. Loose my tongue with the authority of Thy name. Strengthen my hands with the confidence of Thy commission. Make me a useful agent in Thy kingdom not as a conqueror, but as a conduit. Not to build my name, but to hallow Thine.
I ask none of this for my own legacy, but for the echoing of Thy will on earth as it is in heaven. Fit me for this, and this alone.
In the mighty and prevailing name of Jesus, I pray.
Amen.
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